Taking Matters Into Our Own Hands

Well, we've made the decision to switch agencies. I hate to do it, but it feels right, like it's really the best thing to do at this point. Our agency has been really great so far and I would recommend them to anyone. I really thought they would be the people who would help us bring our baby home. But I just can't put my life on hold any longer. We have been waiting for their license to be issued for months now. It wasn't so bad in the beginning, but after we had done all of our paperwork and gotten all of our approvals, we just got stuck and couldnt do anymore. Its been two really long, difficult months of no progress, and I just cant have that anymore. I have been waiting four years to have a baby and I am completely out of patience at this point. I can't believe how difficult having a family has been for us! I feel like I've been in a maze and I just keep hitting dead ends.

But no more. If I want a baby, then I have to see to it that things keep moving along however they have to in order to make it happen. And anyway, yesterday I was thinking that as far as swiching to another agency or staying where we are, there is no wrong choice. Either way in the end we will have our baby.

So the thing that stinks is that we had to fill out an initial application with the new agency and send it in along with a check and a picture of each of us. No, it isnt a big deal. And yes of course the agency needs us to fill out some standard forms to get started. But reanswering questions about our histories, finances, ect? Didnt we do this already???? Not only did I fill out the forms before, but I had a social worker in my house twice talking about all of this with us at great length. Doing all of these things once is no trouble, but I resent having to do it again! And the cherry on top is that now we wait two weeks for the application to be reviewed, and they will contact us regarding if we have been approved. WHAT?!?!?!?! I have paperwork from the state that says we are fit to parent, and a form from CIS stating that we are approved. So why do I have to wait to be approved by someone else? Pleeeeeeease just let me get started!!!!!

I know, I know. I'm just being a bit nuts. But man! Cut me a break, huh?

Whoever it was that said "life is a bumpy ride, make sure you wear a helmet", wasn't kidding.